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A Blue to Not Feel Blue

Why do we keep doing things we know we may regret?


The story behind my shoes

As I told you on “When Neutral is Not Enough”: I’m not a shopaholic and only buy things I love with my own money to reward myself for working so hard. Shoes and bags become a milestone in my life and I usually buy them on a special occasion.

I’m going to share the stories behind one of my favorite statement shoes, the popular Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps in blue suede.
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space

The end starts to begin

I always try to spare money to buy shoes or bags, so when I feel down I can just do retail therapy. Becoming a freelancer motivates me to stop doing retail therapy and find another way to deal with my stress. However before I wanted to end it, I want to buy shoes.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
I love shoes and collect them. I began to realize that retail therapy becomes a bad habit when I saw how many shoes I have even though I didn’t really regret my decision
READ A GUILTY HEALING: RETAIL THERAPY

We need control

I always make a wish list of things I want to buy. It helps to control my spending, prevent me from becoming a shopaholic, and regret buying stuff when doing retail therapy. When you feel stress or sad, your head can’t think clearly.

I Wear My Mood Pinterest Profile
My favorite social network to collect or pin my wish list is Pinterest. It’s easy to use and you can find so many inspirations from other’s profile.

To cope with my stress, I usually don’t always shop right away. I check my budget, look at my wish list, and pick some shoes or bags ‘candidate’ that I want to buy. Then I check the reviews. Forum Purseblog is my favorite place to read people discussions.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps

I fell in love at first sight when I saw Aminah Abdul Jillil’s bow pump. The big bow design becomes the signature which says a lot. Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pump is one of my dream shoes.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps look luxurious and it’s not very expensive compared to other’s designer shoes

Ignoring the bad news

Looking at Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps’ reviews made me surprised. I had doubt purchasing Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps when I read its reviews. People said it’s very uncomfortable.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
I wished there’s Aminah Abdul Jillil store located in Indonesia so I could try them on.
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space

Childhood is impactful

Our childhood gives a huge impact on us. The experience we had, help us to shape our perception and interest. Bow always attract me; maybe because I spent my childhood watching Mickey Mouse.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede paired with yellow Kate Spade go fly a kite mini luggage
I tend to dress ‘maybe’ a little bit childish when I’m excited or feel really happy.
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space

I think a bow is feminine and elegant while also youthful. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why I couldn’t resist a temptation to buy Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede paired with yellow Kate Spade go fly a kite mini luggage
I paired Aminah Abdul Jillil blue bow pumps with yellow Kate Spade Go Fly A Kite mini luggage
Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps in blue suede.
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space

“I feel blue…”

You might hear a lot that sentence which is used by people to describe a sad feeling. It’s interesting that some researches had proofed that when you feel sad or stress, it could decrease your perceptions of colors.

seasonal affective disorder caused by weather
People often use the color blue to describe a sad feeling but when they suffer from the anxiety they usually use grey to describe their feeling
Photo from: I was Wrong, Grey was Right

Another reason why I still decide to buy Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps is maybe that I felt blue at that time. It somehow might affect my decision to ignore the bad reviews, proceed in buying it, and choose blue instead of red—my favorite color.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
I bought these blue pumps when I felt blue. This pair is the last shoes I bought as retail therapy.

Blue to not feel blue

While waiting for Aminah Abdul Jillil to come I was worried I might end up regretting my decision. It was supposed to be a really special shoe.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps supposed to be a milestone which marked the first beginning I’m trying to stop doing retail therapy

I finally received the shoes, opened it, and try it on. These blue bow pumps totally helped me to not feel blue.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps looked as amazing as I saw on the internet.

If I should describe Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps, I might describe it as a ‘beauty in pain’ which reminded me of my guilty pleasure—retail therapy.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede paired with yellow Kate Spade go fly a kite mini luggage
We all have our own guilty pleasure. Mine is definitely collecting shoes
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space

Do I regret it?

Thankfully, no… I don’t regret it even I feel a little bit guilty.

I could walk fine with these shoes without afraid of getting tripped, but it’s quite hurting if I stand too long when wearing it. Since it’s made of suede, I couldn’t wear it on rainy days and need an extra effort to take care of it.

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede
Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps are not that uncomfortable, but not as uncomfortable I imagined.
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space

Even I couldn’t wear it all the time and some people might see it as wasting money, I’m still grateful that I still had a chance to get one of my dream shoes. I love these shoes!

Aminah Abdul Jillil Bow Pumps Blue Suede paired with yellow Kate Spade go fly a kite mini luggage
It’s a bit tricky to find a great outfit to pair with Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps.
Aminah Abdul Jillil bow pumps in blue suede.
Photo by: Gleev Arthur @ Mimiti Coffee and Space 

Maybe there are things that you just couldn’t explain…
or don’t want to find a way to describe it.



Have you ever wonder what does an outfit mean to other people? Is it just a piece of clothing to wear or is there something more to it?


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