There are times when you want to challenge yourself and push your limits.
Just to see how strong you are…
Nowadays, so many people do a photo shoot and take photos of themselves in public places to make a living or just to post it on social media. I began to wonder how do they feel when doing a photoshoot?
Do you think they feel good wearing great outfits? Do they feel confident wearing expensive bags or feel comfortable wearing beautiful shoes?
I never know how they feel, but I’m going to share you how I felt when doing a photo shoot in a public place, Chinatown Bandung.
My photographer friend randomly contacted me to be a model for his fun random photo-shoot. At first, I hesitated since I was having a terrible mood, but he managed to convince me. I thought going out would help me clear my mind, and taking good photos would cheer me up.
“Where to? What’s the concept?” I asked.
“Chinatown Bandung. Just wear whatever you want to wear,” he said.
I answered, “I’m going to wear anything depending on my mood tomorrow…”
However, I didn’t follow my mood… it was a bad decision.
I wanted to have a feminine look and wearing a dress usually helped me to feel more confident. Since I didn’t know the photo-shoot concept nor have any Chinese outfits or jewelry to wear to Chinatown Bandung, I decided to wear a safe option, a neutral color dress.
My outfit was plain and neutral so I need to add accessories to spice up my look. I wore a pair of ’brass ethnic’ earrings which had a different style from my classic dress.
I had a little problem that time: my friend told me that I looked sad and it showed in the photo.
“Think or remember the things that make you happy!” my friend told me every time he was trying to take a photo of me.
How to feel happy? Imagining eating my favorite chocolate lava cake wasn’t enough.
The dress I wore didn’t make me feel more comfortable at all. Instead, it made me feel even more insecure. It took lots of effort to pose and to look good in it. I also didn’t feel confident having my photos taken in a public place. Thankfully, it wasn’t crowded that day.
I asked my friend if I can put on my sunglasses. I couldn’t fake my eyes or how I felt. Thankfully, he said it was okay. I got better photos when I put on my sunglasses and carry my favorite bag.
I’m not a shopaholic and I only buy things I love with my own money to reward myself for working so hard. Shoes and bags become a milestone in my life and I usually buy them on a special occasion.
Let’s give applause to every model in the world because modeling is a hard job! I’m not sure of how others feel when a doing a photo shoot, especially in a public place.
Wearing designer clothes, expensive bags, or beautiful shoes might comfort you a little bit, but it’ll never be enough to free you from your own insecurities.
At least, now I know that sometimes, to survive is enough.
I wonder how do you feel when doing a photo shoot or take a photo of yourself? Do you also feel insecure? If you want to share your thoughts, comment below, contact me, or share through Instagram! I would like to hear and learn new perspectives!
Sometimes, all you need is just to survive on each day you have,
smile, and tell yourself that you have made it through…
What’s your least favorite color? Have you ever tried to wear your least favorite colors in your least favorite weather?
Do you think it would make your day gets worse?